I just don’t get it.
I know I'm not skinny, I know I don’t get up in the early in the morning and do my hair and make up all perfect but I do my hair and my makeup, I know I'm not the prettiest girl in my school but I'm prettier then some of the other girls. But why is it that I see girls who are slobs or are not the best of the bunch with boyfriends? I mean I’m happy for them but what is it about me?
Why can’t I attract a boy who’s not super creepy?
The boy who wouldn’t stop calling me or writing me or anything, he’s really creepy he’s always staring at me, or following me in the halls. It’s starting to scare me.
He gets mad very easy. He’s in my English class, and he’s not really one of the more liked kids in the school so a lot of other kids make fun of him and all this other stuff (it’s mostly the boys because girls hate talking to him) and he just gets so mad, he gets this really scary look on his face.
I could just see him being one of the kids you see on the news who brings a gun to school and shoots the people who tormented them only if he did that at my school it would be a massacre and probably a little worse.
I mean he’s a really nice guy, and he would probably treat a girl right but with me he thought he was funny and he wasn’t, he talked so much about all this stuff I could care less about.
Is this how guys feel when girls talk about stuff?
So to put it simply he drove me up the fucking wall.
Yes, I’ve had dates, and yes I’ve had boyfriends but nothing long lasting.
I want something that last longer then a month or two, or where I’m not going in and out of the same relation ship. This one guy and I we went out for like a year and a half and it would have been perfect if we weren’t going in and out of the relationship. We would be going out for a couple of months, he’d dump me or I would dump him then he would ask me out again.
Then finally I found out he was cheating while he was going out with me so I dumped his ass.
We were going to the same school and he tried so hard to make me jealous but to be honest he just made an ass out of himself that my friends and I laughed at.
There’s another boy, in my English class, I really like him.
He’s really funny and makes me laugh. So I guess you could say I have a crush on him.
We’ve been in the same English class since the 8th grade, and for some reason we always end up sitting next to each other but I don’t mind. I like the talks we have and I like how he can make me laugh at pretty much anything. I know he doesn’t have a girlfriend and that I should just ask him out but I’m to scared to ask him out, or at least I am at the moment.
I want to lose weight so I feel better about myself first.
Then maybe I’ll work up the guts and ask him if he would like to go to a movie or a school dance.
But I don’t know.
Expect more later.