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New Years. [03 Jan 2007|08:42am]
[ mood | French ]

I know today is the 3rd but I havnt felt like getting on the computer until now.
So deal with it.

x - Get better grades
x - Find a job and make some money
x - Save up to help with a car
x - Spoil my self alot
x - Make some better habits

There, now you have it.
I'm already getting the first one.
I'm going to start on the second one soon.
The third one starts as soon as I get the second one.
Same for the fourth one.
And the fifth one starts next week.

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Just today... [20 Dec 2006|09:44pm]
I write alot of stuff down on paper cause when I get home, I dont really remember a whole lot that I wanted to post so yeah...
Today's paper...:

I'm in a total writting mood.
I don't know about what but I am, I need to start bringing a notebook so I can constantly write.
I really do enjoy writting.
I'm looking forward to christmas break, a full week to do nothing but relax.
well...I might have to clean some and on christmas day I will be supa buisy.
I love Christmas because I get to see my family but I have such a big family that its hard to crame visiting hours into one whole day.
I would go into a whole bunch of detail about my christmas only there's so much that its to hard to think about let alone type about..so no.
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Change [20 Dec 2006|08:28am]
[ mood | Seriously ]

I dont see why people are complaining about the setting for posting to your journal.
It isnt that hard to pick what userpic you want to use and then to the rest of the settings at the bottom.
I mean I think that the whole change or what ever was kinda pointless but it's not hard it doesnt take much time out of your posting.
Alot of the new updates livejournal has made over the past year or so have been pointless.
I don't care for most of them.
The only think I like is how I can have 15 userpics with out having to pay.
Change isn't bad but the site never really needed change in the first place.
But I guess I'm just not a big fan of change, I liked the way it was set up, now I don't understand why they changed it.
I wish it would go back to the way it was but still keeping the 15 userpics. 
It was so much easier back then.

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I'm happy [18 Dec 2006|11:25pm]
So there's this guy, he's like 4-5 years older then me but he's hot and he's really nice to me.
He makes me feel better about my self.
Well, I would put more but....I'm going to wait alittle bit because I want to talk to him more.
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I just dont get it... [18 Dec 2006|08:53am]

I just don’t get it.
I know I'm not skinny, I know I don’t get up in the early in the morning and do my hair and make up all perfect but I do my hair and my makeup, I know I'm not the prettiest girl in my school but I'm prettier then some of the other girls. But why is it that I see girls who are slobs or are not the best of the bunch with boyfriends? I mean I’m happy for them but what is it about me?

Why can’t I attract a boy who’s not super creepy?

The boy who wouldn’t stop calling me or writing me or anything, he’s really creepy he’s always staring at me, or following me in the halls. It’s starting to scare me.

He gets mad very easy. He’s in my English class, and he’s not really one of the more liked kids in the school so a lot of other kids make fun of him and all this other stuff (it’s mostly the boys because girls hate talking to him) and he just gets so mad, he gets this really scary look on his face.

I could just see him being one of the kids you see on the news who brings a gun to school and shoots the people who tormented them only if he did that at my school it would be a massacre and probably a little worse.

I mean he’s a really nice guy, and he would probably treat a girl right but with me he thought he was funny and he wasn’t, he talked so much about all this stuff I could care less about.

Is this how guys feel when girls talk about stuff?
So to put it simply he drove me up the fucking wall.

Yes, I’ve had dates, and yes I’ve had boyfriends but nothing long lasting.

I want something that last longer then a month or two, or where I’m not going in and out of the same relation ship. This one guy and I we went out for like a year and a half and it would have been perfect if we weren’t going in and out of the relationship. We would be going out for a couple of months, he’d dump me or I would dump him then he would ask me out again.

Then finally I found out he was cheating while he was going out with me so I dumped his ass.
We were going to the same school and he tried so hard to make me jealous but to be honest he just made an ass out of himself that my friends and I laughed at.

There’s another boy, in my English class, I really like him.
He’s really funny and makes me laugh. So I guess you could say I have a crush on him.

We’ve been in the same English class since the 8th grade, and for some reason we always end up sitting next to each other but I don’t mind. I like the talks we have and I like how he can make me laugh at pretty much anything. I know he doesn’t have a girlfriend and that I should just ask him out but I’m to scared to ask him out, or at least I am at the moment.
I want to lose weight so I feel better about myself first.
Then maybe I’ll work up the guts and ask him if he would like to go to a movie or a school dance.

But I don’t know.
Expect more later.

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[08 Sep 2006|03:42pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Well that boy has started to leave me alone now, I told him he needed to get off my back and just kinda take things as friends because I didnt like him in that way.
So I'm glad on that note.

I'm so glad to get out of school and for today to be friday.
I'm bored...its times like this when I wish I have a boyfriend..

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[29 Aug 2006|04:08pm]
He just called me again
I feel bad, I didnt answer.
I just cant talk to him.
A part of me does because hes nice but I'm really serious when I say we have nothing in common.
I get so bored talking to him that I start to think about other things and pretend to laugh or something.
I'm horrible but I just cant talk to him!
I really dont know what to do, I feel like I'm trapped
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[28 Aug 2006|04:23pm]
Okay well heres something that has been going on

There is this boy at my school, you can tell he really likes me.
I mean its really really obvious, and for a little bit I kinda liked him too, but I just got off of the phone with him...he is so boring!
I mean maybe it was because he's nervous to talk with me cause I mean it usually you are when you talk to a crush right?
But there really wasnt anything that we have in common I mean I'll be friends with him cause he is really nice but I dont think I will date him.
I want someone who I get along with and agree on alot of stuff with.
The only thing I worry about is that awkward feeling and moments between eachother I mean I had to tell him that I need to go do my homework just to get off of the phone, I feel kinda bad but I just had to get off.
So I think I will just have to tell him that I only want to be friends or I will just have to wait and see what happens and then decide what I want...

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[27 Aug 2006|07:31pm]
Okay so heres the deal.
In this livejournal I'm going to express my self any way that I want.
If I offend you then that sucks, but get used to it.
If you have a problem with what I say, or think or whatever then dont read my fucking journal.
I'm not posting on here for you, I'm doing it for me.
I have a problem with writing things down on paper, I dont really know how this will be any different but I'm going to give it a try.
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